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Some days the sun shines, and you just bask in the glow, and all is right with the world. It's as if you are suddenly the centre of the universe, and everything is revolving around you.
And then, it passes. It is dark again. You feel sidelined. Overshadowed. Eclipsed, even. Everything seems heavy, and onerous, and too much trouble. But the worst thing is you remember the sunshine, and are torn between remembering it and counting the days until the next time.
Is it that the shadow is necessary to appreciate the sunshine? Or is the darkness the price to be paid? You can't have the light without the dark.
But sometimes I suspect I'm so dazzled when it is sunny, that the dark is darker because of the light. In fact, if you really analysed it properly, you'd find that the dark wasn't actually that dark at all, but seems so because you can remember the sunshine, and you know that isn't it.
I wish, I wish, I wish I were able to just console myself with remembering the sun when it has gone. Instead it feels all too often that the dark would be bearable if I didn't have the sun to compare it to.
And then, it passes. It is dark again. You feel sidelined. Overshadowed. Eclipsed, even. Everything seems heavy, and onerous, and too much trouble. But the worst thing is you remember the sunshine, and are torn between remembering it and counting the days until the next time.
Is it that the shadow is necessary to appreciate the sunshine? Or is the darkness the price to be paid? You can't have the light without the dark.
But sometimes I suspect I'm so dazzled when it is sunny, that the dark is darker because of the light. In fact, if you really analysed it properly, you'd find that the dark wasn't actually that dark at all, but seems so because you can remember the sunshine, and you know that isn't it.
I wish, I wish, I wish I were able to just console myself with remembering the sun when it has gone. Instead it feels all too often that the dark would be bearable if I didn't have the sun to compare it to.
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