Meanwhile...

[faustus]

Adciezl (who wanted ridiculous amounts of money for earlier books) seem to have vanished into the aether, or at least no longer are trying to flog my book, nor The Leaky Establishment.

I got my fifth annual Public Lending Right statement, and for once they are actually going to pay me some money... as they've dropped the threshold to £1. Not sure what I'll splash out the £1.58 on. Pick and mix perhaps.


And suddenly, perhaps it's exhaustion, but my mood dropped almost exactly on the dot of 11.30pm. I know the trigger, which need not detain us, but it's depressing that it depressed me. In the past 48 hours (Monday and Tuesday) I've done exhausted, angry, happy, content, and now depressed. Probably the failure to get out of bed properly until gone noon should have cued me to the direction of the day.

Boing.

To think that yesterday (Monday) afternoon someone said, "Cheer up, it might never happen." And only about three hours after he had told me I was looking well. This I cannot believe. But I can't see how his first statement could be any use to man nor beast; if I've reason to be unhappy it's crass, if I haven't it's cliché and hardly Wildean.

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[oursin.livejournal.com]

Eleanor Bron described this annoying bit of bad interpersonal relations in The Pillow-Book of Eleanor Bron:

he comes up and greets you with a condescending leer, saying, 'Cheer up, it may never happen!', and 'Why do you always look so depressed whenever I see you?' You bite back the reply, 'Because whenever you see me I see you.'

[drasecretcampus.livejournal.com]

That may well be true in this case, even though I know I am frazzled. Every time I see this person I wonder if it is the time we have the row (everyone else has had it). Part of me just wants to get that out the way with.

We had a chance once, arguing over a mark. I decided that it was probably better to allow the student to have a slightly higher mark than they deserved (it was on the cusp of 3/2.2) than have a blazing row, especially as it was unlikely to make a material difference. Sometime you don't sweat the small stuff.

The other part of me doesn't want to give him the satisfaction.

Flat frequency response

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"It might never happen". I really hate that. It always seems as if the 'it' in question is their anodyne platitude itself, so in fact they've just made it happen. There's generally few things more aggravating thereafter. And if there is then it's proved them wrong...

[pennski.livejournal.com]

I think pick'n'mix is an excellent suggestion - or possibly some chips. Something fun and up-cheering anyway.

This week my project manager told me to breathe during a meeting when I was doing his job (i.e. chivvying others into agreeing what their next steps were). Grrr!

Much love and sympathy heading in your general direction.

Re: Flat frequency response

[drasecretcampus.livejournal.com]

Of course, just to be contrary, there are those times when people insist that you are having a bad time or are angry or are in a bad mood when you aren't. I have of habit of getting withdrawn in large groups and watching from the sidelines; I'm happy to do this rather than always being the life and soul.

I wasn't having a bad time, but I will if you keep on insisting that I'm having one...

[drasecretcampus.livejournal.com]

The problem with pick'n'mix or chips is they remind you of the diet that you've not been following for a year now because you can't cope with that on top of everything else. Must Get Bike Fixed.

We had a good night out last night, but the morning was still more or less a write off from exhaustion, after Friday being unproductive too. I got 13 essays graded this afternoon, which leaves the other 13 for tomorrow, and waifs and strays. Oh yes, and about three thousand words which need injecting into an article dammit.

There's another invite for a drink tonight, but it's going to be a large group, and I'm not sure I'm up to that.